I am the joyful and blessed mom of three precious babies.
And yet, I'm not able to hug or kiss any of them right now. I can't wrap them up in my arms and tell them how much I love them, how special they are to me and how there's nobody in the world like them. At nighttime, I can't tuck them in and pray the sweet blessings of Jesus over them.
For you see, my first two babies are already in the presence of Jesus, singing and dancing before the throne of God. They are probably sitting on His lap right now, or playing hide-&-seek with the children of our friends who have also gone before. Or maybe my beloved grandfather has taken my children by the hand and is teaching them about the glorious flowers that grow there. You see, before our babies even had a chance to breathe their first breath on this earth, they went home to heaven. But they are loved with an everlasting love and they are precious to us!
And we now wait on our third baby, our darling little daughter from Uganda. We don't even know who she is or what her name will be. But we love her fiercely and long to bring her home to us.
Every day we live in the tension between all that God has promised us, and the circumstances we find ourselves in. We are parents who have no children in our home at this moment. There are no little feet that run around our house, no finger prints to wipe away, no spills to clean up. Sometimes at dinner, when its just Edgar & I at the table, we wipe tears from our eyes knowing that there are precious little souls who are missing. We wait for them joyfully, expectantly, with hope...
And so, though I have no person on this planet right now that calls me "mom" and runs to me to kiss their tears away and for me to swoop them up into my waiting arms, it is ok, because I AM the joyful and blessed mom of three precious babies. And many many more to come, we hope. :-)
And yet, I'm not able to hug or kiss any of them right now. I can't wrap them up in my arms and tell them how much I love them, how special they are to me and how there's nobody in the world like them. At nighttime, I can't tuck them in and pray the sweet blessings of Jesus over them.
For you see, my first two babies are already in the presence of Jesus, singing and dancing before the throne of God. They are probably sitting on His lap right now, or playing hide-&-seek with the children of our friends who have also gone before. Or maybe my beloved grandfather has taken my children by the hand and is teaching them about the glorious flowers that grow there. You see, before our babies even had a chance to breathe their first breath on this earth, they went home to heaven. But they are loved with an everlasting love and they are precious to us!
And we now wait on our third baby, our darling little daughter from Uganda. We don't even know who she is or what her name will be. But we love her fiercely and long to bring her home to us.
Every day we live in the tension between all that God has promised us, and the circumstances we find ourselves in. We are parents who have no children in our home at this moment. There are no little feet that run around our house, no finger prints to wipe away, no spills to clean up. Sometimes at dinner, when its just Edgar & I at the table, we wipe tears from our eyes knowing that there are precious little souls who are missing. We wait for them joyfully, expectantly, with hope...
And so, though I have no person on this planet right now that calls me "mom" and runs to me to kiss their tears away and for me to swoop them up into my waiting arms, it is ok, because I AM the joyful and blessed mom of three precious babies. And many many more to come, we hope. :-)
This is beautiful Melanie and such a precious perspective!
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I love this. But you know I relate! This is a wonderful post and the words are so true. Love you and your little family of 5. May our children always dance and sing together at the feet of JESUS!
ReplyDeleteLove jess!